I Long Feel Feared That My Sin Will Visit Me

I am belong to a good family, and my family belongs to one faith, a faith of a Muslim world, I was very thankful that my blood flowing in my vein has following to the path of humanity, a straight path through eternity & have parish everlasting life in the day hereafter.

As I belong to this faith. I long feel feared that my sin will visit me; I did what as I believed that makes me feel good, I did what as I believed that makes me happy, this delicate whispers I always heard, it's a voice of confidence & strengths that will prompt me to pursued those things and live like a dreams – peers into my life. No cause for doubt and thinking offer's hope, directions & strength and its take controls in my own life.

In the still of passing moment I keep concentrated on that which makes me happy & have always fun every day & to enjoy the beauty in this world, keeping always my mind open to new experiences even the road curves as long as it's lead me into happiness, and never let anyone to hold my happiness in their hands, I always keep myself on this momentum.

I never felt and realized that my spirit has going to cave in and running away to my soul.

Never realized all happiness that I did is not necessary to my good deeds rather its written belong to my bad deeds & my soul has accountable for it.

I never realized what would be happened when my sin will visit to me.

Never measure failure of my soul when my sin overwhelm to me.

I never realized my soul become hopeless when my sin will visit to me.

Never realized nobody will blamed when my sin come to visit to me.

And never realized all those thins I did will down to Abode of Loss.

And now I am afraid that my sin will come to visit in my life, in which, I'm not yet prepared to face it up. May the Almighty GOD forgive me and lead me back to the right path & take me away to the painful punishment of my soul.